The Silence is Deafening

Speak the truth, even if your voice shakes!

  It’s been almost one year since I publicly outed my childhood abuser. Her name is Clare Hreshcak and she is my mother. There are no preparation guides to outing one’s abuser and little knowledge as to what a victim of sexual, physical, and emotional abuse should expect as a response to such a striking […]

The Musical That Lives in the Mouth of the Monongahela River


“Wake up sweetheart, it’s Christmas morning, your dad is going to jail.” – Sergeant. My father and I are living in our home town, a small steel-mill town outside of Pittsburgh that boomed back in the early 60′s but dissolved into a poor hole in the earth where one can’t shop for clothes, but can […]

I explore the ocean for one of Christa McAuliffe’s strands.


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Here, tourists sift sand between toes, not knowing salt makes straw of hair. I’ve always embraced this place though, minus mother’s madness. I lived in a town where I could step out of my house, look up to the sky, and watch rockets launch into space. I don’t know for what more a child full […]

The Trials of a Drug Trial: Special K

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No, not the supposed waist-slimming breakfast cereal. I’m talkin’ Ketamine. Kit Kat. K-hole. In 2012, I volunteered to participate in an inpatient drug trial at NIMH in which they were testing the effects of Ketamine on patients who suffer chronic depression.  NPR aired a segment about the hopeful, ground-breaking research. It was an enticing proposition […]